the lounge issue with me.

my post:

Dear Diary,

im happy! haha! i am relieved of my duties and responsibilties. hindi ko na kailangang mamahiya at manita. hindi ko na kailangang tumingin sa mga boards na di ko trip at magbasa ng mga useless posts ng iba. WHOOO! freedom. sweet sweet sweet freedom! yeah, hindi pa official pero ayoko na magtrabaho. im on STRIKE. haha! LOL. as if papansinin? well, im hope other people will be happy as well. they(go figure kung sino yun. clue? 3 sila.) did get what they wanted which is for my friend to leave. TSUK! haha. may masasapul? bato bato sa langit ang tamaan wag magagalit. inis? SUE ME. STAB ME. x] haha! oh yeah. I LOVE IT. WHOOO! mamatay na sa inis ang iba dyan. basta ako. MASAYA. i know. im bitchy. wink! haha!

LOL. gumawa pala ng napakalaking gulo ang post ko. isang post lang damay na lahat! hahahahaha! eto ang ilan.

mei:

DEAR DIARY,

THIS ISN'T THE PROPER VENUE FOR THIS BUT THIS IS WHERE THEY WANTED IT.

-and do you think the what have you learned thread is not a proper place too? bat kayo nakakapost ako hindi? unfair di ba? its a dear diary thread. and i can say whatever i want. i was not violating any rules as i recall. you people are just afraid that the people in banidad will know whats happening. haha!

THIS WILL BE THE 1ST AND LAST TIME I SHALL COMMENT ABOUT THE ISSUES HERE AND I DON'T CARE IF I'LL GET A WARNING OR A SUSPENSION FOR TYPING IN ALL CAPS, OT, ETC.

1st. to kissy,

i couldn't apologize to you more for not being able to defend you when you needed my help. i know you went through a lot for banidad esp against those people who are pestering us, but i wasn't able to help you. i'm really sorry for that.. i love you and i wanna thank you for everything you did.. you are a tough person and i envy you for that. i'm proud to have someone like you in my life. kayo ni bakla. hehe! hindi lang talaga alam ng mga tao ang totoong nangyayari kaya they judge you or us na kesyo mataray daw tayo, judgmental, bitch, suplada etc. don't mind them nalang. if they knew what's going on, malamang hindi din sila makakapagtimipi. pero SANA TUMAHIMIK NA SILA. annoying na e.

-bat kayo? hindi ba kayo nanghuhusga? LOL. what a hypocrite.

to those people, pls lang?SHUT THE HELL UP! DAHIL HINDI NYO ALAM MGA SINASABI NYO! at wag si kissy ang pag-initan nyo kundi yung magaling nyong kaibigan na walang ginawa sa buhay kundi mag-inarte at guluhin ang buhay na may buhay!

-kelan ko pinag initan si kissy? meron bang nakapost na kissy na post ko? 3 ang sabi kong dahilan ng pagalis nya. hina mo pimick up. sino ba siya para pag initan ko?

2nd. to mapi,

WE never asked for your dear friend to leave. SIYA ang kusang umalis. at akala ko ba e tapos na tong issue na to? it was her letting go and moving on drama, diba? personally, if i wanted her to go, sinabi ko nalang ng deretsuhan sa kanya. for what she did to us sa tingin mo hindi ko kakayanin na prankahin sya na umalis sya dito? oh hell no- trust me, that's the slightest thing na pwede kong sabihin sa kanya sa galit ko sa kanya.. and no, not because i'm ungrateful to her for bringing me here or i'm a bitch or whatever.. but i didn't said anything diba? i never confronted her. i just didn't do it dahil inisip ko nalang somehow she was a friend to me too. at kahit konti, i respected her nalang as someone who's in the position. pero ano ginawa nya? imbis na tumigil sya e naging habitual lying na.. and for what? to win our sympathy? PATHETHIC!!! i will never join her pity party! take her lil fiasco in the banks where it fits! at lagi nya pang ginugulo mga kaibigan ko na may sariling buhay at nanahimik! when she confronted me why i was ignoring her all of a sudden, may narinig sya sakin? wala. what for pa na malaman nya? and during the time she said hateful words to me, may sinabi ba ko na masama sa kanya? not a word, nothing. nada. zilch. sa lahat ng galit ko, i shut up eh.. dahil yun ang civilized way to deal with those kind of people.. tapos, ako pa ngayon masisisi sa pag-alis nya? bakit? dahil i didn't join her little drama?

- ang tanging alam nyo lang ay ang sally issue. yan lang ang pinag basehan nyo ng katotohanan. parehong alam ko ang kwento. nakausap ko pareho ang dalawang side. kaya wag mo sabihin sakin na wala akong alam.

-theres always two sides of the story.

-sino ba may sabi sayo na sumali ka? may nagpapasali ba? wala. ikaw lang ang nagsasabi nyan.

- shut up? LOL. eh kayo? puro kayo parinig. hindi kami mga tanga.

- ginugulo nya? umalis na nga eh. ano pang ginugulo? grabe mga imahinasyon at ilusyon nyo ah.

i just can't take all of these anymore! you people have crossed the line! si kissy. for everything she did to banidad, sya lagi ang sinisisi ng mga tao, sya ang napapasama sa lahat, na dapat yang dear friend mo ang umaayos ng gulo dito. imbis na magpasalamat sya, ano ginawa nya? wala syang naging imik sa kahit anong unos na dinaanan ng banidad. si kissy lahat ang umayos. galit na galit ako dyan sa kaibigan mong magaling for what she did to her.. pero did i ever confronted her for that? NEVER! ikaw, alam mo ba hirap ni kissy sa banidad? na makapagparinig ka against her e parang napakatagal mo na dito at alam mo lahat2!

-crossed the line? and you guys didnt? you guys are considered administrators and global moderators and you use the board for parinig? wow. galing nyong pumuna sa mali ng iba pero pag mali nyo na. wala na. kissy that. kissy this. pake ko ba sa kanya? LOL. may sinabi ba akong pangalan na kissy. GUILTY?

not you. or her or whosoever has the right to disrespect kissy or me or anybody here. kahit wala kaming posisyon e. the hell with being a moderator! bilang tao nalang e. sino ba kayo? unless you're the one who's putting food in my mouth, then you don't even have the single right na gawin to samin. dahil trip nyo lang and bitch kayo? you don't wanna know how bitchy i can get too. ni wala nga kayong alam sa mga pinagagagawa ng kaibigan nyo na pinagtatanggol nyo e. kaya pwede? LEAVE US ALONE!

- kelan ko ba binastos si kissy? ako nga ang nababastos eh. lagi nyong dinedelete ang post ko ng walang paalam. ano to? baligtaran? gago ka ba? minura ko ba siya? OA mo. KELAN KO BA KAYO PINAKEALAMAN? nagagawa nyo nga gusto nyo eh di ba?

kissy

Dear Diary,

I told you I am not happy here na diba? I already had my quiet time then why all of a sudden there is a commotion again? I've leave the team because I think that I am not capable of doing my responsibility and I wanted to have peace of mind. Why they can't just let me be alone? I am thanking to have ate mei to be there to stand for me. I know who am I and I know to myself that I stand for what is Good for Banidad. I already had my time serving this forum and I think I have the right to do what makes me happy and that is to be a regular member. Well at least I am happy and I am enjoying my time =) Hindi po kami tatlo.. apat po kami.. Cheesy And I am very much happy to have friends na hindi sinungaling. At least my friends are not pathetic.

- sino ba kasing nakekealam sayo? ni hindi nga kita kinakausap sa ym dyan eh. walang kahit ano. baka guni guni mo lang yan. o baka naman paranoid ka na. para kang baliw eh. may tililing. ano ba yan. kung masaya ka sa pagiging member mo sure. pero maraming natuwa sa pagka alis mo. isa na ako duon.

-taas naman ng lipad mo. hindi ka superstar.

- sinungaling. NOW THATS JUDGING. haha! tapos sasabihin nyo kami ang nanghuhusga. its the other way around honey.

lexxis

What's this mapi? anong gusto mong palabasin? i thought we talked about this? wag mo nang idamay ang banidad. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

Dear Diary,

Sorry for the OT. Don't worry. I'll be cleaning up this mess. I take all responsibility.

-LOL. nagpost lang ako. yun lang. paano ko dinamay ang banidad? if theres something going on in banidad. the members have the right to know. ang happy happy kunware tapos hindi naman pala. para nyo silang tinatraydor.

with a single post, i gained a lot of irked people. haha! nakakatuwa noh? mga pikon. simple lang sinabi ko. pinalaki nyo.

ang sabi ko lang sa dear diary. masaya ako at sana masaya na rin kayo dahil nangaubos ang banidad people. i didnt mention any names. i gave a clue. tinamaan naman kayong lahat. haha! wala kayong magagawa kung trip ko. as long as i do not violate any rules, im gonna say the hell what ever i want. its the internet. and i love bullshitting other people. its as simple as that. at hindi ako magbabago para sa inyo noh.

haha! i told you so! >:]

You Are 71% Bitchy

While you may not think of yourself as the ice queen, admit it, you're often in a bad mood. And it's those around you who often bear the brunt of your annoyance, even if they haven't done anything wrong!

How Bitchy Are You?

you can never really tell if a person has ethics or not. define ethics.

ethics (noun) - a set of principles of right conduct.

yeah. were in the internet so wheres the ethics? its called netiquette.

netiquette (noun) - etiquette practiced or advocated in electronic communication over a computer network.

its not forced into someone its learned and taught into us when we were young. then we take it in and carry it as we grow old. wherever we go and whatever we do even though someone's not looking.

some people just dont really care about other people here in the internet. maybe because of freedom. there are no laws restricting the boundaries of certain behavior here. there are rules and given sanctions for every site. some site dont have one. we choose where to browse and stay. where we benefit and becomes happy.

how about people who run a certain site? a person who implement rules?
what if they are the ones who breaks the rules because they are administrators or the owner?
do you think thats just? fair?

i for one do not think so. who am i talking about? lexxis of banidad.com forum community. he implemented not to delete any posts because some are back reading. then again, some violated that.

on october 27 of this year, someone deleted my post in the lounge board. a board for administrators and moderators.

i was pissed off. and before that kissy wouldnt get off my back.

i never intended to hurt anyone. i spoke for all of us. i wanted to suggest something good. and they deleted and disrespected me.

kissy wouldnt speak up to this matter until she spoke to me in my yahoo messenger. she admitted she deleted my post. and the only reason she gave to me was that she was protecting me with all the backstabbing comments.

i do not care what other people say. i really dont need her help, me telling me what to do and especially doing me favors when im not asking her too. from the beginning i never liked her. so why start now? okay, so everybody deserves a chance. but DAMN she wont listen when i told her to talk to the person directly when she got a problem. coward. that was the last time i ever talked to her. im not intending of changing her and im not changing for her either.

i already reported the matter to both of the owners and so far i recall no action on this matter. biased, unfair and special treatment as i see it.

on november 22, lexxis made a thread in the lounge namely "whats wrong with banidad". he wanted all of us to speak up. and we all did and majority of us said that the forum was too strict and some of the rules should be revised. he didnt listen. its was a useless thread actually. display. so some of us resigned. we didnt have a say. its not considered a forum.

november 27 i had another post in creative corner. the thread named "dear diary". my post was again deleted. yeah. it was a bitchy post but i did not violate any rule. how come delete it? oh yeah, so people will know that there is something going on with banidad. i can understand that. im not that stupid. they should at least have my consent before deleting anything. its my intellectual property and they have no right. they are abusing their power. they can get away with everything.

now i proved that lexxis is a real selfish owner. i gave him a chance thats why i posted in his thread. im disappointed. im wrong. false hope. i doesnt really matter anymore. there are far more important things than banidad.

besides, banidad is paying for his/their actions. do they really think that the members are that stupid not to know that there's something going on? they are looking for krisha. the real owner. of course, they wanna know why she left and someday they will know. heck! some even dont post anymore.

banidad was such a happy place when we were there. when everyone talks to each other and says hi. everything is okay.

now? they are too serious and take everything too tight. the processes etc etc and blah blah blah. suffocating and tiring. and i really hope what they are doing will benefit banidad. they continue and go on without us.

i dont really need banidad. im gonna live without it. and so will banidad.

maybe ill post about what really happened why krisha left. as for now, im posting for myself. and for banidad members reading this. you now know why we left. and i suggest, you think which is the right from wrong.

Nosi Balasi by Sampaguita

Wag mong pansinin ang naninira sa ‘yo
Basta’t alam mo lang, tama ang ginagawa mo
Wag mong isipin, wag mong dibdibin
Kung papatulan mo’y lalo ka lang aasarin

[chorus]
Nosi, nosi ba lasi
Sino, sino ba sila
Nosi, nosi ba lasi
Sino, sino ba sila?

Ituloy mo lang, gawin ang gusto mo
Walang mangyayari kung sila’y papansinin mo
Talagang ganyan, wag mo lang patulan
Wala lang magawa kaya sila’y nagkakaganyan

[repeat chorus]

So love this song. HAHA! its self explanatory.

when you care, love and trust a person you would find ways to keep the bond alive.

friends. its funny how i recall things. we build our bond just by a simple post i made on her forum. as the days, weeks and months past by. we grew closer. i find out we have similar things and that we share. i found something in her. a friend.

in time, there are always obstacles that challenge that bond. we experienced that. many people questioned our friendship. commented. said that we are just friends because we need and find "kakampi" in each other. some persons even tried to ruin what we have. we proved them wrong and up until now its strong. still standing. concrete.

we may not talk in a certain site or messenger but we talk on other means. we dont have to shout out to the world how we value each other. we already know that. in fact, i do not care on what they say. just dont meddle with us. dont come up to me and say unnecessary things.

friendship isnt measured by how long you know the person or been with her. its how much you care, love and trust the person. yes. there will be always misunderstandings. it cannot be avoided. surely, no one would like everything to go to waste just because of that. the memories and the feelings. the emotional investments. thats why if we make a mistake, we learn and try to fix things up. start all over again to save all that said investments.

friends are hard to find. value them.

krisha, piya, koi, trixie and joshua. i value you guys and that will never change.
i love you guys. :]

you are my sweetest downfall

You are my sweetest downfall I loved you first, I loved you first Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads But they're just old light, they're just old light Your hair was long when we first met

i love this line on regina spektor's song. whenever i hear this i always think about my boy. he has long hair. he captured my heart. ah. LOVE. the sweetest downfall ive experienced up until now. everyday that im with him, im happy as if we are the only ones living here, in this earth.

yesterday, after my class, the usual. meet ups then eat. after i bought my book and had the tailor take my measurement for my blouse. we decided that we should go to mall of asia. tambay. had ice cream then waited for the fireworks to come up. we bought food and sat over the sea wall seeing the shoreline. simpleng kwentuhan. just the two of us not a care in the world. (mind you, there we many people seating at the sea wall waiting for the fireworks. it was annoying really.) as we watched the fireworks up close, i felt that glitters were falling down on us. or better yet, the colorful stars went just to say hello up close. it was beautiful.

isnt great that everyday of m life, i have him by my side. only me and nothing else. i realized that not only do i have a boyfriend i also have him as my friend. we can talk about any topic without any hesitation or shame. we are open with each other. doesnt keep any secrets. we are able to find and make time for the sake that we love each other's company. walang nagsasawa. everyday is a new day that i will spend just for the two of us.

im selfish. i want everything for him. i dont want distractions anymore. one by one, im going to leave things behind here in my virtual world. not all but keep important things. ive decided that i dont need anything else but him. he is worth everything.

i love him so much.

kung may nagparinig sayo? anong gagawin mo?

kung may nagparinig sayo? anong gagawin mo?
a) papatulan mo?
b) wag mo na pansin?

para sakin, wag na patulan. bakit? bumaba lang breeding ko eh. nagpapatunay lamang na kapag pinaringgan ka. duwag. hindi kaya sayong sabihin eh. hanggang talikuran lang. paano ko nga ba nalaman na ako ang pinaparinggan? nung isang araw nag update ako ng blog. at inilgay ko sa baba "insecurity kills". and it does. it drives people nuts. ng makita ko ang thread na " message to your friends and bestfriends" nakita ko na kinopya nya ang sinabi kong iyon na may strike through font effect pa. ibig sabihin, wow! minamanmanan pala ako! haha! grabe na ganda ko! haha! DAMN TALAGA. HAHA! natatawa ako. natutuwa. WHOO! nd yeah, maturity isnt measured by the years. its measured by how you act, think and speak.

AM I BEAUTIFUL OR WHAT?!

insecurity kills. damn! some people are too "inggit". yes. imagine, im a junior moderator in a forum community. i was banned in my own moderated thread. i dont think its a simple mistake. how can they? are they blind? dont they double check it? there are many administrators and nobody even noticed. nobody even checked when i said "hindi ko nakikita ang die in a crossfire ko". nobody bothered or cared. im no fool. sana lang lumaban sila ng harapan. wag nila abusuhin at gamitin ang kapangyarihan nila bilang administrators. what loosers really.

stereotyping!

okay so you have a picture, looks grungy and dark. you post it somewhere for everybody to see. one comments - "your emo". what the fuck? how can you tell? by the way she looks? so yeah. stereotyping is a tradition. you look clean and dress good. your conyo. dress cheap? jologs. bah! what about these labels that makes people concious about themselves. ah yes. media. we are all zombies. but damn! photostealing and copy cats? i think that's below the belt. no originality. placing your shoes just to imitate someone you think cool. lame. just shoot yourself and bleed to death. haha!

the ex boyfriend.

1.After 1 year of not seeing
each other, muli mong nakita ang ex mo.
Ano ang magiging reaction mo?
. *snob

2 . Saan nakalagay ang picture ng ex
mo?
. wala. sunog na o kaya punit na.

3. Nakasalubong mo ang dati mong
bestfriend na GF/BF na ng ex mo
ngayon. Ano ang gagawin mo?
. oh? pumatol ka sa basura ko? BAGAY.

4. Tinetext mo pa ba ang ex mo?
. nope.

5. May nagbalita sa yo na naaksidente
daw ang ex mo. How would you react?
. who cares, care bears?
. oh talaga? okay.

6. Ano ang naka-entry na name ng ex mo
sa fone mo?
. wala.

7. Kailan ka huling dumaan sa favorite
restaurant nyo ng ex mo?
. pancake house

8. When was the last time you heard
news about your ex?
. mag tratrabaho daw siya sa japan.
. bagsak daw siya sa swimming.

9. Nabalitaan mo na ikakasal na ang ex
mo. Ano reaksyon mu?
. aww. me nagpakasal dun? haha.

10. What's your usual reaction kapag
napapakingg an mo ang theme song nyo ng
ex mo?
. wala lang.

11 . After your break-up, ano ang
ginawa mo to recover?
. ENJOY LIFE. HAVE FUN!

12. Kung meron kang gustong ibigay sa
ex mo, ano yun?
. ah. slimming pill tska master cleanser.

13. Kung gagawing pelikula ang love
story nyo ng ex mo, ano ang gusto mong
maging title?
. wrong love.

14. Kapag nakipagbalikan ang ex mo,
tatanggapin mo ba sya uli?
. tanaw ko palang siya, no na kaagad.

15. You walk into a restaurant at
nakita mo ang ex mo dining out with a
date. Ano ang gagawin mo?
. aww. who cares, care bears?

16. Complete the sentence. "Ang
natutunan ko sa naging relationship
nami n..."
. mali ang umibig kaagad. mali din ang magpakatanga, magpakagago at ibigay ang lahat na halos walang matira sa sarili.

17 . Kung bibigyan ka ng Fairy
Godmother mo ng chance to turn back
time, gugustuhin mo pa bang balikan
ang nakaraan nyo ng ex mo?
. yeap. hindi na sana naging kami.

christina aguilera's - can't hold us down

Christina Aguilera's - Cant hold us down feat Lil Kim

So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch cos I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled

When a female fires back
Suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Making up a few false rumors or two

That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say

Chorus:
This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout out loud!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave them proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down

Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Never can, never will

So what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended by the message I'm bringing
Call me whatever cos your words don't mean a thing
Guess you ain't even a man enough to handle what I sing

If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore

I don't understand why it's okay
The guy can get away with it & the girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
Start a new beginning for us everybody sing

*Repeat Chorus

[Lil' Kim:]
Check it - Here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's the man
He can either give us some head, sex a roar
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put their name on it
It's airight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on movin'
To all my girls with a man who be tryin to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back

But you're just a little boy
Think you're so cute, so coy
You must talk so big
To make up for smaller things
So you're just a little boy
All you'll do is annoy
You must talk so big
To make up for smaller things

*Repeat Chorus x2


My POV on this:
i love this song. why? it talks about the stand of a woman. we should be respected not because we are what we are but because without us there is no man. sure, you are stronger but that doesnt prove anything. that's just the physical aspect. how about emotional? oh yeah sure, we are more sensitive but we can also prove you wrong. we can make you cry and beg for more. intellectual? we are smarter than you think.

we make the world go round. trust me, we do. we deserve respect. we deserve to be loved.
we have the right to take pride in ourselves. we are beautiful beings. creation of the Lord to be here for you. so dont waste the given gift to men.

a man who hurts a woman isnt a man at all. he's just a coward. hurting a person weaker than him.

BULLY.

we are a part of you and accepting that leads to equality.

there is no difference between a man and a woman. both feels love and pain. both need each other. its as simple as that.

The wait is finally over.

Yes! it finally finished! whoo! All the adjustments have been made. And so far, it can stand on its own now. I hope old friends can support and help me on this. Register and be with us now.

wanderlust forums

the long wait is almost over

im still finishing the last touches to my forum. this will signify new life. new beginning and of course new friends. im hoping i can correct my mistakes here and avoid repeating the history. call me an asshole, bitch and biased. i have no plans of inviting those persons who im irked with. so to speak, they are not welcome. if they do join. haha! sure. no prob. but make no mistake about messing around my forum or its members. i wont hesitate banning their IP and deleting their accounts. I'll be putting up their names in my hall of shame. mark my words. yeah. its the net but these people take everything literally and personally. so lets fight fire with fire. kick it up a notch and see who will have the last laugh. haha! >x]

htpp://s3.invisionfree.com/wanderlust

first day of school

woke up real early. yeah. a little bit of excitement. new blockmates. new subjects. gah! if i only knew ill be disappointed. there were no professors today. so much for the bus trip, fare and my energy. should have stayed at home and sleep. well, i did meet my only tow friend in school namely joey and nico. they keep me company while i was waiting. anyway, me and jacer have meet ups as we always do. eat, gala sa mall. fun fun fun! my day wont be complete without him. atleast, he was there even if im kinda sad how my first day turned out to be. im just glad he is there always by my side.